Monthly Archives: October 2012

Collection of Memories at Gardens By the Bay

Gardens by the Bay

Super Trees are so giantic that they can’t be missed!

Teng Family

Kening and brother.

Super brothers.

Curious mind checking out the kois.

Happy day out!

Qipee’s first visit to GBB.

We’re so green!

Trying to squeeze the super trees into the mini Diana.

A day out to GBB with beneficiaries from Home Nursing Foundation.

Third Time Lucky

We have tried to delay this as far as we could. A second transplant is inevitable.

I had my second chance in life in March this year, but it didn’t work out the way we want it to be.
Perhaps it’s going to be third time lucky for me. The medical team has set the date of admission to be on 22 Oct 2012.

Chance of remission is about 10 – 20% (previously 70%).

Chance of Graft versus host disease – 60 – 80%.
- This is both good and bad.
Good in a way that the chance of graft versus leukaemia is higher.
Bad in that the donor cells may launch aggressive attacks on my cells.

I have done whatever I could, the rest I will leave it to fate.
What’s important now is to live happily, with peace in my heart.

The following two to three weeks will be difficult and likely to be another test of my limits. Visitors are limited to my immediate family.
To my supporters, I would really appreciate any lovely quotes, jokes, pictures or even past good memories that we had together send to my whatsapp, facebook or email. Things that will give me the strength and will to fight. Things that will make me break a smile. Things that water the seeds of hope, courage and positivity. :)

Self Healing Possible

A couple of weeks back, I mentioned about doing home composting. I read in compostinginsingapore  that a layer of hay on top of the food waste can prevent odour in home composting. It got me into a cheap-hay-hunting mo0d in local pet stores, but it ended quickly after my doctor told me I would need a transplant soon. The verbal agreement to start home composting was no longer valid since I may be away from home for quite some time. But hey, it was such a coincidence that I found another Hay, this time at a book store. I was rushing off already, but I managed to note down the author of a Chinese-translated book, Louise L Hay. A quick research on the smart phone got me interested in Hay’s metaphysical work linking the mind to the body.

Louise linked how our negative thoughts and feelings get manifested as problems and illnesses in our lives. It has to do with how we are brought up and the environment that we lived in. During our growing up years, we were always involved in comparisons and competitions. Hence, we may find ourself not good enough and often look at what’s there to improve instead of being thankful for what we already have. Over time, our guilt, resentment, anger, fear and etc get expressed externally. However, Louise believes that everyone can still turn their situation around with gratitude, self-love and daily affirmations. In You Can Heal Your Life, she helps the reader to identify the problems and recommends changes in their life that could benefit them in their relationships, work, success, prosperity and health. What’s remarkable was that Louise practiced and proved her philosophies after she got diagnosed with cancer, which she shared her story in the later chapter.

I was particularly amazed by the list of dis-eases and  probable cause that Louise had compiled in Heal Your Body. Checking up on the probable cause of leukaemia, it stated “Brutally killing inspirations. ‘What’s the use?‘”. Have I been doing that?

I was going through Hay’s website and I came across Dr Wayne Dyer and Anita Moorjani. Those are long stories, but the story of Anita Moorjani brings hope to cancer patients in my opinion. Down with Stage 4 Hodgkin Lymphoma, in a coma with multiple organ failure, with 24 tumours the size of lemons all over her body and Anita given 36 hours to live. However, she made an unbelievable healing with all the tumours and swollen lymph nodes disappearing in the next few days. With reference to the meditation materials that I have read recently, it seemed like during her near death experience (while in coma), she went into a deep meditation state and her survival was followed by her enlightenment. In any case, I agree with what she believes in the present moment – to be yourself and live fearlessly without emotional baggage.

It’s amazing how looking for hay helped me to find these three books. Cheers for inspirations, hope, and healing. Best wishes.